journey 01

at first i decided not to post this journal on ,afraid that you guys might worry that what's got into me or i'm in danger. but it's my blog anyway.why not if i want to.

i have plan for a while to travel somewhere on my own. today i feel like it. my destination was pattaya but after driving for an hour i quite tired. car's running out of gas, freaking without sense of direction so i decided to change direction to bang-saan a bit nearer beach.

found out that i love bang saan than pattaya may be it's long weekend.so there's lots of families and children playing all over the beach.amazing that it was not annoying at all. actually i love sound of kids yelling,laughing mixed with sound of wave and wind as a background make this sea scene much prettier than south beach crowed by bikini girls. i find myself a place on the sandbeach sitting reading thinking writting..to finish one of my story that i write for a while.

my story is not something great. it may because i do believe in "love and beloved in return" or it is just my excuse that i always use to protect myself from being hurt by not going too far..am i a chicken-hearted55? i'm thinking about leave it like that whatever will be will be or else as a person like me i'm not gonna wait endlessly on one's love. anyway i think it'll be linger on for a while..not that long and not that hurt.from now on i'll let it die itself as it grow itself. friendship is what i guarantee it'll always be here.

finally, i've finish my story. i like it much but now i prefer to keep it in my mind only.
at first i think about throw it into garbage but this book i made it myself, i love it and it's not its' fault. so i choose to wash it. dipped it into the sea, paper begin to wet and weak so fast and black ink blur and wipped away leaving only faded words and lines on. besides that black ink and my words become part of the greatest sea.

so i bring my wet book with unreadable story back with me.leave the beach and just finished story behind.
finally i'm home, a little bit of happiness,sadness ,and quite fun!

p.s. you guys don't get me wrong that i'm crazy or i'm in danger...to tell you i'm more than okay. you all who know me well. i just wanna do something cool! hehe or some of you may call it tist-dak or tect-dak whatever. but i feel so cool. don't you think what i did today it's cool that i pretend like i'm in some kind of sad romantic movie umm maybe sophia coppala's one?
and i'm star..hehehe
what should i name this film dee wa?