Vietnam inside-in

24th-27th Febuary 2007

Unfortunately, I lost my Journal because of my forgivefulness.

28th Febuary 2007

:Morning
Are you sure?
...
Don't be so sure about what you are thinking.

:From The Orientation of the retreat
walking stable and light ...can you do that?

1th March 2007

:Morning
From Thay's Dharma talk

Sit still.

:Evening
We, the Sangkhajai, try to rewrite the sone " here is the pure land" in thai
But we totally fail! Anyway we enjoyed trying.

2ed March 2007

:5.30 am
We did sitting meditation together by the lake for 5 minutes.
I was so sleepy but I feel so peaceful and thankful for the time that had come for us to sit together like that,peaceful and beautiful moment.

:morning
Monastry, sisters and brothers chant the heart suttra in the meditation hall.

:and Practice Deep Listening to Thay's Dharma talk

here is what I lectured, well it's just some part of the whole.

"Practice relaxation.
when we talk we sit...when we relax the others around you will be relax too.
start from taking care of you body and then you can taking care of other people.
if we stress the other will stress by your words, behavior.
we have to learn the way to love others
all start from ourselves
if we're fall of anger, stress, irritations inside
you can not love others.
we have to love ourselves
be light.
today we will learn to love ourselves.
when we have worry, anger, stress, sadness, strong emotion
...how do you take care of it?
just come back to the present moment
be alive.
...how do you take care of it?
just like when you cut your finger by accident
the left hand will drop the knife and press on the wound of another hand

We have to recognise it.
How to deal with it?
mindfulness is the source of energy.
we cultivate the energy, freedom, stability by walking in mindful step.
mindful transform and change the energy of anger.

breathing in, I know my anger is rising.
breathing out, I'll be gentle to my anger and take care of it

We don't see anger as an enemy
anger is also friend.
no violence in mindfulness

our gentleness can penetrate to our anger
mindfulness can decrease the energy of anger,
decrease the pain, for those who practice.

to be mind ful is to be present.
if we lost we're forgetfulness.

to practice is to excite the second energy the positive energy to calm us from first energy, the fear, anger and strong emotion.

next step..
find the cause of the pain
look more deeply
usaully, our anger come from the wrong view , wrong perception.

We critisize
blaming them for our own suffering
just because we're unskillful
and we also make them suffer.

Practice compassionate listening
we won't react, critisize, blame
just listen to make them suffer less

though it will make us hurt but we continue listen.
and say please continue
please share
and we won't re-act right away
give them times and start to say to them
start from a bit
give them time to adjust

say could you please..
share your own suffering ....."

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to be continued
ps. I hope you all who read, didn't sleep while reading na hehehe