lying there and shows up for sometimes.
some makes me laugh or maybe ashamed, regrets, craved
there are somes that I'm not sure whether I want to remember or entirely forget them.
and many times I can't help thinking to myself "If I wasn't, If I didn't,...."
none of them I could change no matter how much I want to fix the karma I've made
that's not what's god let human like us do.
if i could hear him say,he may say "hold you head up and move on. even though you have to wear your past karma and walking the present. make your best in the here and now."